It was right after my second loss and right before my surgery to remove my septum. It was the last weekend I had where my mind was clear. I was beautifully distracted by the weekends activities, the company of friends and family, and the lure of a gorgeous city.
I hope I can get back there some day. To a place where I feel like myself again.
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Stupid Blogger ate my comment. It was a good one, too. Hmph. Must go make more coffee. Just humor me and pretend there was a good comment from me here.
You will be back to feeling more like yourself soon. I believe it will take some time, and will not happen right after the little roomie is born. But I think once he is here, you will begin almost a healing process. Healing from the trauma of a difficult pregnancy, infertility, past loss, and the feeling of all you lost along the way by what you have had to give up. In the end you'll be yourself but so much more of a kick ass mama than you ever dreamed because of the strength you have shown along the way. Even though you may not feel like you always feel strong or able to deal with stuff as strongly as you wanted to- you are and have handled things so well - I can see that in you. So yes - the new you will be even cooler than the old one - which I can tell is a very good person indeed.
((hugs))
Okay that's enough mush for one day - now I'll return to my more sarcastic joking self, okay?
I hope you can to.
Ditto on being able to return to that sense of peace. It will come back, I know it will. One day, when you're not ready for it, it'll sneak up on you from behind, and suddenly, you'll know inside, it's all ok. However in the meantime, as you know - life sucks. Been there.
~ Rachel
I hope it comes sooner than expected for you!
I hope you can get back to that place soon too with a happy heart and a clear mind.
that is a peaceful looking photo.
Feeling at peace with yourself is a wonderful thing. I hope you can revisit that soon.
Good wishes - there will be better moments again.
I don't think you'll necessarily be your same self again. You'll be different, but better.
I hope the peace of heart comes soon. I love the photo though. Trains (travel) make me think of possibilities. Is the picture taken on a train?
I hope you get back there soon! HUGS
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