Sunday, October 26, 2008

Show and Tell - Oct. 26, 2008

On this same day last year, in the early morning, I was sharing a cup of coffee with a dear friend. It was a really windy morning, with the sun just coming up. We were in Montreal.

It was right after my second loss and right before my surgery to remove my septum. It was the last weekend I had where my mind was clear. I was beautifully distracted by the weekends activities, the company of friends and family, and the lure of a gorgeous city.

I hope I can get back there some day. To a place where I feel like myself again.

12 comments:

May said...

Stupid Blogger ate my comment. It was a good one, too. Hmph. Must go make more coffee. Just humor me and pretend there was a good comment from me here.

sara said...

You will be back to feeling more like yourself soon. I believe it will take some time, and will not happen right after the little roomie is born. But I think once he is here, you will begin almost a healing process. Healing from the trauma of a difficult pregnancy, infertility, past loss, and the feeling of all you lost along the way by what you have had to give up. In the end you'll be yourself but so much more of a kick ass mama than you ever dreamed because of the strength you have shown along the way. Even though you may not feel like you always feel strong or able to deal with stuff as strongly as you wanted to- you are and have handled things so well - I can see that in you. So yes - the new you will be even cooler than the old one - which I can tell is a very good person indeed.

((hugs))

Okay that's enough mush for one day - now I'll return to my more sarcastic joking self, okay?

Another Dreamer said...

I hope you can to.

Rachel said...

Ditto on being able to return to that sense of peace. It will come back, I know it will. One day, when you're not ready for it, it'll sneak up on you from behind, and suddenly, you'll know inside, it's all ok. However in the meantime, as you know - life sucks. Been there.
~ Rachel

jenn said...

I hope it comes sooner than expected for you!

Martha said...

I hope you can get back to that place soon too with a happy heart and a clear mind.

Sam said...

that is a peaceful looking photo.

Kristin said...

Feeling at peace with yourself is a wonderful thing. I hope you can revisit that soon.

JuliaS said...

Good wishes - there will be better moments again.

sacredandscarred said...

I don't think you'll necessarily be your same self again. You'll be different, but better.

Lollipop Goldstein said...

I hope the peace of heart comes soon. I love the photo though. Trains (travel) make me think of possibilities. Is the picture taken on a train?

Rach said...

I hope you get back there soon! HUGS